A journey to nowhere

•November 1, 2012 • Leave a Comment

It was a fine sunny day. I saw you alone in your car and crying. I stopped and give out a hand for you to reach. So that I would at least made you stop crying. You let me in your car and we went for a few miles. You told me your story and I listened attentively. I knew it should be someone else in your car but not me. I was just a passenger in the car, not that someone who can shift the pedal and steer the steering. Maybe I supposed the time will come where it is just me and you in the car and I can drive the car without anybody else in between.

I sit at the back most of the time, whenever we reach a junction, it wasn’t me who decides which turn do we make; it is always someone in front of me. I kept telling myself that the time will come and this person won’t be in the seat in front anymore. I believe it. You did reach out your hand to the seat at the back sometimes so that I know and you are belongs to me. It was just a matter of time.

As time passed, I kept waiting at the back seat. The person in front of me is still there. I guess it is time for me to get out of this car and never returns but you stopped me. You beg me to stay and I did stay even though I am not yet able to drive the car. After a while, out of the blue, there is someone else at the back seat. And suddenly you asked me to leave the car. I was dropped at a place that I don’t familiar with and I can see things changes from far. Maybe it is time for me to start walking back to nowhere. And the walking finally starts again after a year hopping in a car that doesn’t belong to me.


Is this Goodbye?

•October 7, 2012 • Leave a Comment

I sleeps every now and then without your calls

And hardly hears you said you love me and miss me at all

Could it be that you found someone that you want

In the midst of my busy work from 8 to 9

The day I started busy you said it was okay

For you to wait me every single time and day

My time now passed without you in the line

Where were you, with who I just can’t define

My heart is in pain and my hands are trembles

Knowing you with someone they fables

If this is good bye?

I hope it is all worth for the rest of your life

Reaching out

•July 31, 2011 • Leave a Comment

Lately I’ve been hard to reach
I’ve been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world
Where they can be alone

Are you calling me?
Are you trying to get through?
Are you reaching out for me?
Like I’m reaching out for you

Yup, I am try to reach out my old friends now. But there’s always barrier in every day’s life to what we as a human try to achieve. Time, money and space constrain. These 3 factors lead us to be friends with people that are surround us and neglect them who use to be our friends. I know this is a fact but constantly we can or maybe should get along and spent some good time together doing stuff that that we use to do before.

To those who knows me, I am who I am; known for mystery character and don’t really like to be in the spotlight. You may notice this for sure. So, I’d hope that I can get back to all of you and be more friendly. Peace!

P/S: Happy Ramadan to all Muslims and congratulation on your new born kid.


•November 27, 2010 • 2 Comments

This is the first post that I wrote via a superb newly received device that worth about half of my salary. But its worth it. I can fulfill my free time doing something more beneficial for the mankind like writing this blog.

Oh, btw, this a testing after downloaded apps for wordpress.

Picture above was taken after a game on Saturday morning, organized by a community that have the best player in town. Well, after all, they are the one who getting all the prizes. Its not a big deal to me coz I’m just a sub in this event. Drove out from home as early as 7 am in the weekend seems like a big loss for those work their ass out up until 6 pm every weekdays.

Last night I watched a movie on my laptop, 2009 Sherlock Holmes, indeed a good movie. I wonder is there anyone who is a brilliant as him with his intuitive senses. He could figure out just almost everything. And please I hope it would the next movie as in the end there’s a little hint for a 2nd chapter.


•October 10, 2010 • Leave a Comment

This song keeps on playing in my head. A prolific song by one of the legend, John Lennon.

Imagine there’s no heaven
It’s easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today…

Imagine there’s no countries
It isn’t hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace…

You may say I’m a dreamer
But I’m not the only one
I hope someday you’ll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world…

You may say I’m a dreamer
But I’m not the only one
I hope someday you’ll join us
And the world will live as one


I didn’t write for a long time now. It’s time to get active back but whenever I am, there’s always something comes in between. I couldn’t help that but to ignore this poor diary of mine. I miss writing all the things that I felt. It is an art to transform all the feelings into words and I do want to improve on that. I once quote it as writing with your heart, not with your hands and thought.

Things have changed a lot now, and I hope I can cope with all of it. A new venture. With new surroundings and tasks, people look at you in a different way now. Respect. But it all comes with responsibilities.

Can I manage it? Can I control it? or worst, do I deserve it? Things that bugging my mind and end up as a headache.

Well, I need to adapt. It is just a matter of time.

Its been a while

•May 1, 2010 • 1 Comment

It has been a while since I wrote in this so-called life diary.  Well, maybe back then when I’m bored and have nothing to do and that’s the time this blog full with entries, up to once a week or even more.As of now, I managed to get myself busy with something related to computer and most of the time I just sit down in front of a PC for hours. Its quite bored at first but everybody needs a start. And I guess I’ll just grab the opportunity for the time being.

Just a few days ago, I watch this drama movie that touched me so much I nearly end up in tears. It was The L0vely B0nes.


Story about a girl who was raped and murdered and how she looked back  into the life of her families from hereafter. Its a very emotional story that shows the love of a father to his daughter. An unconditional love. The father keep trying to find the murderer but in the end, they will always slip away. The cruel world that we lived in never knows the true meaning of justice. I really like the way Peter Jacks0n portrayed the image of the kids heaven, how ships wrecked from bottles, giant sphere rolling in the sunsets and many more.  In the afterlife, all the kids there were murdered including Susie, the main character. The story will surely touch any soul. The movie was based from a novel with a same title by Alice Sebold.

This entry is kinda bit hanging isn’t? Maybe I’ll edit it later. I need to write something that is much more important, well maybe not to me but to someone else’s. Later


•December 3, 2009 • 6 Comments

I stumble into one my friends’ blog and found a nice and rather true personality test. And I reluctantly took it with even thinking twice; maybe because it is easy and not like other personality tests that have few pages to be completed. This one have only a single page and surprisingly, the results pictures me quite a bit. So, I just paste it here. Note that I only put it here so that I can read it again next time and remind myself how unique I am. Laugh.

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They’ll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don’t judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren’t necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people’s eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that’s why you’ll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It’s time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

I took this test just once. No cheating. Well I don’t know for sure if my friends love me, I got only a few birthday wishes back in April. This is the only time that someone who think he or she is being appreciated or loved by friends other than being there 24/7 as if everyone could do that. It truly shows someone still have you in their mind. So, birth dates are important guys! That’s the first thing that I’ll asks from a girl that I like. Laugh.

There you go. I like being me despite the fact that I wish I could have been born again and minimizing my sins before my whole life comes to an end one day. Do you like who you are?